Tuesday, November 22, 2022

ALL WOMEN ARE LIKE THAT

As an aficionado of classical music, few things thrill me more than listening to Mozart, Beethoven, Puccini or Wagner. Opera in particular (the word comes from Latin for “the works”) offers wonderful music, elaborate sets, sumptuous costumes, glorious singing and almost more passion and drama than one can pack into a three hour extravaganza — in other words: ”the works.” At this very moment I am listening to a recording of Beethoven’s one and only opera, Fidelio — but more on that later.



Mozart’s comic opera, Così fan tutte, translates to the title of this post: All Women Are Like That. Though I adore the music, as a 21st century liberated woman I find the plot of this opera rather difficult to swallow. It involves two friends who, spurred on by a cynical acquaintance, test their fiancées’ fidelity by donning disguises to see if either of their ladies will succumb to a stranger’s affections. Each man attempts to seduce the other’s fiancée. As much as I pray that at least one of the women will resist temptation and remain faithful, proving after all that “all women are not like that,” both yield to the wooing. Since this is the 18th century equivalent of a romantic comedy, all ends happily. The gentlemen forgive their fiancées for their transgressions — after all, they are members of “the weaker sex.” Despite Mozart’s glorious music, I can’t help but feel a little disheartened by the condescending portrayal of my gender. But I try to forgive the storytellers, hindered as they were by living in a less enlightened age than our own.

So I look to other operas for more inspirational models of womankind. There’s another lovely opera by Mozart, Die Zauberflöte (The Magic Flute). The heroine, Pamina, courageously stands by her hero’s side through a perilous trial of fire and flood. She is certainly an exemplary feminine archetype. But misogynistic themes permeate the libretto. The villain is a woman, Pamina’s own mother. Pamina’s wise male guardian advises her that “a man must guide your heart, for without a man, a woman would not fulfill her aim in life.” The hero, too, is warned to ignore the counsel of women because “a woman does little, chatters much.”

Operatic heroines often fall victim to frailty, intemperance, or their own or their lovers’ errant ways. Violetta (La Traviata), Carmen, Madama Butterfly, and Mimi (La Boheme) all succumb through illness, suicide or murder. Though a more sympathetic prototype than the villainess, these are not models that a strong, self-sufficient, modern woman would care to emulate.

But back, as promised, to Fidelio. Beethoven’s opera, first staged in 1805, weaves thrilling melodies into a tale of intrigue. Yet it is the heroine, Leonore, who shines above all. Disguised as a man, she rescues her husband from certain death. The divine music is that much sweeter because Beethoven has lifted the female ideal to a higher plane. In the magnificent, soaring finale the chorus exalts “the devoted wife, the savior of her husband’s life.” In Fidelio, I discovered a synthesis of music, lyrics and plot that affirms my deeply held convictions. Through Leonore, the opera devotee’s faith in the strength, courage and fidelity of heroines is restored. And I do believe that many (though not all) women are like that.

You’ll find another courageous heroine — along with a dashing hero — in my World War II romance novel, In the Arms of the Enemy, available online at Amazon, Barnes & Noble, and most digital booksellers. Please visit my website at www.lisbetheng.com.

Tuesday, November 15, 2022

YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT YOU MIGHT FIND IN THE BIBLE


You never know what you might find in the Bible. This is especially true for me, who views the Bible as literature and religious lore, not as the “word of God.” (Please, no debates here on that subject.)

I’ve recently become more interested in Judaism, which I consider part of my ethnic and cultural heritage, but not my religion. (I usually define my religion – if asked – as Unitarian Universalist Ethical Culturist, or for simplicity’s sake, agnostic.) 

Being an avid Facebook enthusiast, I enjoy the cornucopia of videos available in this social medium – from funny cat videos to satirical political commentary to, surprisingly, videos about Judaism. There is one Orthodox couple who regularly pop up in my feed, offering insight into arcane Jewish laws and rituals.

One such video, a discussion of niddah and zavah, led me to pull out my copy of the King James Version, sandwiched between Unorthodox and Fifty Shades of Grey on my bookcase. (To be precise, the video indirectly led me to Leviticus 15:18, after I had Googled the Hebrew words cited by the Facebook couple.)

But ere we immerse ourselves too deeply (pun intended) into biblical laws of ritual purity, allow me to clarify. Interesting though that subject may be, that is not the point of this post. Instead, it concerns the import of one page of neatly-printed, long-forgotten verse, composed by me decades ago and tucked between the pages of my Gideon tome:


“Find Me”

Find Me

Lord.

Lost in a world of

No understanding

To me.

Why

Am I here?

Is there such a thing as

Truth

Or only

Chaos.

Are you there Lord?

Tell me!

Are you really there?

Two no

Twelve no

Ten thousand

Roads diverge in a yellow

WHY!?

Is there a way,

Some way

To righteousness?

I only want to know

Your way,

If there is –

You.

I seek

But do not find

So please Lord

Find me.


The serendipitous rediscovery of this poem struck me in a similar way as did the VHS tape found just a few days earlier. While cleaning out a cabinet filled with ancient tapes, I unearthed my brother-in-law’s amateur video of the 1992 wedding of my late husband and myself. Viewing my thirty-year-younger-self in a lacy ball gown, alongside my now seventeen-years-deceased husband, provoked bittersweet, nostalgic emotions. I don’t remember exactly when I wrote the poem “Find Me,” but would estimate that it predates my wedding, and perhaps even precedes meeting my future husband in 1987.

So why would rereading my old verse arouse bittersweet or nostalgic feelings? Because I am remembering who I was, and how my views on spirituality have evolved over these past decades. The plaintive, nearly desperate entreaties of the young woman I was then no longer represent me, at least not in tone. Though agnostic on questions of the divine, I am now at peace with my uncertainty. Life experience, persistent introspection and the application of reason have led me to reject the Abrahamic deity that I had once feared. I am not an atheist and acknowledge that I may be wrong, that there may exist an all-knowing, all-seeing, all-powerful deity who will condemn me to burn in the fires of hell for not believing in Him/Her/It. But I don’t think that’s likely. Someday I may know for sure, one way or the other. But for now, I’ll just live my life the best way I can and – damn it all! – will try to enjoy it.

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If you’d like to better appreciate my philosophy, you may find another poem, “Abou Ben Adhem” by Leigh Hunt, illuminating: https://www.poetrybyheart.org.uk/poems/abou-ben-adhem/

Disclaimer: I have reproduced the “Find Me” poem exactly as my younger-self had written it, so please overlook any punctuation imperfections that my “now-published-author” self would have corrected.